The Lord Heals the Broken Hearted…

Psalm 34:19 "The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit."
I have had my heart broken. It was put into a blender and someone hit the pulse button…time and time again. I was young, naïve and "looking for love in all the wrong places". I'm 26 now and still trying to piece back my tattered hopes and dreams. It's been a big struggle. My identity was in this boy. I loved him unconditionally and he couldn't love me back. I gave him my all, and he gave me what he could, but it wasn't enough. I blamed myself. I didn't move on. I kept on going back.

I…Was…Wrong.

I put this boy on a pedestal. I made him my god. I worshiped him. I adored him. I broke the first commandment – "Thou shalt have no other gods before me."

I honestly have a hard time believing it's taken me this long to figure it out. But something happened and that's why I've been up all night, and I still can't sleep. I get it now.

My dearest friend and her boyfriend broke up last night. She called me at 1:00 in the morning…sobbing. She's been in her relationship with him for over 5 years. She was ready for an engagement. We even went to the jeweler and tried on rings. (She did…I didn't. Rings made me nervous.) She was positive that this boy was the one. He had never said he loved her. In all the years of dating, not once had he whispered those three very important words. It was evident he cared about her, but caring isn't enough. He knew it. So that's why he made the decision to end it. Because he knew that she deserved the best. She deserved someone who was IN LOVE with her unconditionally.

So he walked away.

I admire him. It must have been the hardest thing to do, but he did it for her.

She is broken hearted. She is despairing. She doesn't understand. She doesn't deserve it. I empathize with her fully. I have been there. I have wailed. I have sobbed. I have cursed God.

I know women are emotional beings, but I believe that when we put our hope and dreams into a man. He will fail us. Unintentionally, but in the long run….he will fail. No man (or woman) should ever take the place of God. How can we serve God with our WHOLE heart, when we have given it away?! I am so guilty of this…so many of us are.

The Lord has a perfect plan for us. He promised us.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Why is it we are so full of unbelief? Why do we forget His promises? Where do we start going wrong?

My path to broken heartville began when I no longer was content to bask in the Lord's love for me. I looked elsewhere for love and acceptance and didn't trust in His goodness.

I'm opening up and revealing my vulnerability. I'm sharing my weakness. I'm acknowledging my mistakes.
I can't regret my past relationship (yes…just one) because I've learned so incredibly much. I have a solid relationship with my Savior. He is my all and all. I adore Him. I love entering into His presence. I boast in what He has done for me. He LOVES me so much more than any man could. He has written love letters to me (the Bible). I'm the most blessed girl in the entire world.

My friend will be ok. I am praying for her. And I'm confident the Lord will be there to comfort her. She is strong and the Lord loves her.

And me? I raise my hands and lift my face toward the heavens. I give a victory shout. And I thank the Lord for all that he's done…and all that he will continue to do!

Remember….
Psalm 34:19 "The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit."

It's One of His Many Promises.
Love you Guys,
Mary Katherine