Every once in a while I get into a funk. I've been in a funk all this weekend. It started with someone lying to me. Let me tell you something. I used to be a very good liar, or as I would call it if cornered – a story teller (it added a bit of mystic to my lies.) But now that I have grown up a bit, and have a solid relationship with my God, I don't lie anymore. So catching someone in a lie royally pisses me off. He omitted certain details so that I wouldn't know something. But I had learned of that "something" the night before, so when he didn't tell me, I got pretty irked. Ok…so we resolved that issue by mid-morning. Then around 3:00 the same afternoon, he starts sending me angry texts. Already frazzled by the morning's activity, I shut down emotionally. His anger was because of a miscommunication issue with another friend, and somehow he thought I should be the one to yell at via text. Now keep in mind I dated this man (I use that term loosely) for two years, and have finally succeeded in realizing there isn't a future with him. I give all glory to God for that. But anytime there is something that happens and he is involved, my heart still gives me a pang.
My friend invited me out with her to Northgate that night. I'm not a big drinker, so Northgate isn't my scene, but the events of the day wouldn't leave my thoughts so I thought girl time would help me recover. Noooooooooooo….because as I'm walking down the street following a drunk girl to make sure she's ok who do I run into….yep. HIM. I'm telling you folks…God has a wicked sense of humor. It was awkward and embarrassing and he wasn't nice. When we were dating he had a friend (his best friend) that he lived with, and he hated me. According to him, I was boring, and didn't drink, and all sorts of other stuff. But that was two years ago! So I see this friend along with him, and ask. "Can we please be friends now?" He responds, "No, I really have no desire to be your friend." Loooooovely. If hating wasn't a sin, I would have a serious issue. We part ways, and I spend the rest of my night sitting outside on a curb watching people make fools of themselves. Girls stumbling around in 6 inch heels and mini -skirts while their male counterparts wear tight t-shirts and sunglasses (AT NIGHT!). People are throwing up in trashcans and mimicking sex on the dance floor. I know I was raised sheltered, but how and why people think this is fun really escapes me. I'm so overwhelmed by the crappiness of my day that I call my sister at 2 in the morning. Let me tell you something y'all. My sister and I used to not get along. I still have the nail marks from our fights. But now, she is the one I go to when I need some sense walloped into me. And boy…did she wallop. She reminded me that this man is only 1/25th of my life. A blip on my road to life. She is a very wise woman, and I'm so incredibly proud of her. I hung up the phone, sidestepped the vomit piles, escorted my intoxicated friend home and crawled into bed with a new found hope. THIS TOO SHALL PASS…
I get a daily devotional from Joseph Prince. My dad suggested it, and me, being the obedient daughter that I am, obliged. This morning I woke up, turned on my worship music, and checked my email for my devotional of the day. I just wanted to share with you the awesomeness of today's entry.
Isaiah 54:14
"In righteousness you shall be established; you shall be far from oppression, for you shall not fear; and from terror, for it shall not come near you."
WOW! Isn't that amazing?! Once we have received Christ as our Savior, we received the gift of righteousness. So we are already established in His righteousness. Storms of life happen. Stupid and sad weekends happen. But everything Satan brings up something that makes you worry…I remind myself of who I am in Christ - Perfect in righteousness! No Weapon formed against me shall stand!
Sorry this post is a bit sporadic. With all the events of the weekend swarming in my brain, I just wanted to write it and let it be just a vague memory. I let it go like a balloon that drifts away slowly on the Spring winds. I won't see it again. Praise God.
Love you all.
Mary Katherine - Perfect in Christ
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| Me and my sister. love her. |
1 comments:
Very Nice Blog. And you know me and numbers, I REALLY like how your sister put an amount that this guy was in your life. It really is a small part, and the bad times will pass. We all have those kind of weekends every now and then. They are there to really appreciate the good weekends when we have/see them. :)
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